Bereavement Room Podcast


Sikh Derby man Kalwinder joins Callsuma in the Bereavement Room to talk about his father who died by suicide in 2006. We reflect on his experiences of being impacted by suicide, poetry as a source of expression and support and the triggers of loss following the recent global pandemic, COVID-19. In this episode we also talk openly about the challenges faced working with mainstream charities and what this means in trying to reach wider communities. You can reach out to Kal on twitter –  @khalsir

This episode is dedicated to our Grandfathers and Fathers.

Thank you for listening.

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By khalsir

Home Away From Homeland – Derby

“I just wanted to recognise my great heroes and heroines in life”

Author Kalwinder Singh Dhindsa‘s Derby collection is an A to Z of iconic Derby figures in the form of poetry and illustrations.

It includes a football legend, breakdancing star and has a link to James Bond classic Octopussy – and we spoke to Kalwinder to find out all about it.

By khalsir

Derby Sketching Club

A portrait sitting at the Derby Sketching Club.

It was a great honour to be invited to have my portrait sketched/painted at the Derby Sketching Club.

The members of the club are a  fantastic and talented bunch of artists.

The Derby Sketching Club is a members’ club now meeting in LittleoverDerbyEngland. It was founded in 1887, and still meets today, providing members with facilities so they and others can work and share their interest in painting and sketching.[1] Early members included F. Booty, Alfred John Keene, William Swindell, George Thompson, Charles Terry and Frank Timms.

Ernest Townsend, R. W. Bardill, Harold Gresley and J. P. Wale.

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TownsEnd by Kalwinder Singh Dhindsa

#Derby #Nazi #RollsRoyce #PearTreeRampage #Poetry



X-Hibition & Ad-Hibition by Kalwinder Singh Dhindsa.

#Derby #Derbyshire #Art #Poetry



By khalsir

Home Away From Homeland

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“Ever since his death I’ve been trying to come to terms with what happened”

Kalwinder Singh Dhindsa – who lost his father to suicide – has written two books about the death of his dad, along with poems about mental health.

He courageously shares his story with us and discusses the stigma surrounding mental health in the South Asian community.

Author’s collection features iconic Derby figures

By khalsir

Free Download

Two of my Poetry collections are available to download on Kindle for FREE for the next few days.

Pear Tree Rambler

Little Pear Tree Ram



By khalsir

‘There is a light at the end of tunnel’

Author opens up about dealing with dad’s suicide.

‘My dad spent his whole life helping people but he didn’t have the outlet he needed’

Kalwinder Singh was 26 years old when his dad Mohinder took his own life.

The news came just months after Mohinder’s brother and Kal’s uncle died by suicide after battling depression for years.

Struggling with the heartbreaking news, Kal thought he would never be happy again.

But, 14 years on, he is sharing the story of his grief to help others through similar trauma and give people hope.

The now 40-year-old has written a two-part book about his dad’s life, history and his own grieving process.

“When it happened I just couldn’t get my head around it,” Kal said.

“I thought I would never be happy again but now after all this time I have hindsight and I have learned a lot.”

He hopes that by sharing his story, he will help others.

Leicester Mercury

24 SEP 2019

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By khalsir

Derby Walk of Fame 2019

The first ten Derby stars to have their names etched into the stars in the city were:

Alice Wheeldon Derby’s most famous suffragist and a fervent anti-First World War campaigner

Bess of Hardwick, England’s richest Elizabethan woman after Queen Elizabeth I used her considerable wealth to help Derby poor and needy

Brian Clough and Peter Taylor the top management duo that took Derby football from obscurity to national fame

Sir John Hurt in recognition of his sterling contribution to the arts as an accomplished actor

Joseph Wright globally recognised English landscape and portrait painter and the first to express the spirit of the Industrial Revolution

Louis Martin, the Jamaican-born sportsman who became Britain’s greatest-ever Olympic weightlifter

Philip Noel-Baker, a former MP for Derby, credited with saving the 1948 Olympic Games for Britain

Charles Rolls the pioneer aviator and Henry Royce the engineer and designer who formed Rolls-Royce which sets the global standard for excellence in automotive and aviation technology


The newest additions to the Made in Derby Walk of Fame are:

Adam Peaty, Olympic champion breaststroke swimmer who won the Gold medal at the Olympic Games at Rio in 2016, which earned him the Freedom of the City of Derby later that year

Marion Adnams, English painter, printmaker and draughtswoman, best known for her surrealist paintings

Bird Brothers – Frank, Thomas and Reginald, Derby born bakers, founders of the Bird’s Bakery chain

Karam Singh, Solo world champion break dancer from Normanton

Jack O’Connell, British TV and film actor well known for his roles in Skins and Angelina Jolie’s directorial debut Unbroken

Lara Croft, Archaeologist video game and film heroine created in Derby

Liam Sharp, Marvel and DC comic book artist, famous for drawing Spiderman and Wonder Women comics

John Flamsteed, the first Astronomer Royal, who prepared of a 3,000-star catalogue, Catalogus Britannicus

Steve Bloomer, Derby County football legend who signed to the club as a professional footballer in April 1892

Florence Nightingale, heroine of the Crimean War and the major founder of the modern profession of nursing


By khalsir

Surviving Bereavement by Suicide

On World Suicide Prevention Day we are presenting a short video on the experience of Kalwinder Singh Dhindsa who was bereaved by his father’s suicide.

The video is introduced by Dr Gurpreet Kaur, Chartered Clinical Psychologist (@DrKaurTherapy), who asks for the video to be shared with people in your immediate family networks who are less likely to access social media.
The video covers the following areas:

The term ‘committing suicide’
Is suicide selfish
What might have helped his father
The experience of grief
Does grief end
Community reactions
What do we (the community) need to get better at?
Moving forward

Crisis line numbers
Sikh community contact points
Contact for Dr Gurpreet Kaur

As this video is about a young man who lost his father, please do share it predominantly with male figures in your life, such as your father, grandfather, uncles, brothers, sons and friends. Suicide prevention can only happen if we all become more adept at discussing mental health difficulties and struggles openly. By doing so, we will also create avenues for people to understand that there is a pathway towards hope and healing.

Thank you to Kalwinder for bravely sharing his experiences. If you would like to learn more about his work please visit his website: or follow him on various social media channels: @KhalSir.

If you have any queries or would like to share your mental health experiences please email

By khalsir

The Colour of Madness: One Year On

On 1 September 2018, we published The Colour of Madness, an anthology exploring Black, Asian, and Minority Ethnic (BAME) mental health in the UK. The book featured the art, poetry, stories, and essays of over fifty contributors*.

Far from being a one-off publication, The Colour of Madness has taken on a life of its own. We have given talks, spoken on panels, and run workshops at universities, festivals, marketing agencies, council events, and more. Edinburgh University students took our stories from the page to the stage, and our contributors have been making waves across the country. Our book is now in the hands of so many people we admire, from Jackie Kay, to Sharmaine Lovegrove, to Reni Eddo-Lodge. Here’s a snapshot of what we’ve all been up to!

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By khalsir

Hidden Project – Red Saunders, Derby Tableaux

“I really enjoyed dressing up for the Derby Lock-Out scene. I look forward to seeing the final version at the Derby Silk Mill when it unveiled in the Summer of 2020. A great honour to be involved”

Red Saunders is a professional photographer who combines his photographic practice with cultural, artistic, musical, and political activism. The aim of Red’s Hidden Project, through re-imagining those events, is to reproduce important historic scenes involving the dissenters, revolutionaries, radicals and non-conformists who have so often been hidden from history.

Derby’s history can be understood through its people, place and energy. Three historic and globally significant moments for the city will be recreated by Red Saunders in a series of three photographic tableaux for the new Museum of Making:

  • Derby as the receptacle for a global flow of knowledge and the birthplace of the Enlightenment in the 18th Century.
  • An expression of working class solidarity and resistance in the first Factory Lock-Out of 1833-34.
  • The region’s technical advancements that created new ways of understanding and living in the world from 1880 onwards.

This is an once-in-a-lifetime experience to produce a new artwork, both featuring and created for the people of Derbyshire. We’re looking for people of all ages, ethnic groups, genders and abilities who are living and working in the region to get involved and be part of Red’s Derby People Histories tableaux.

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By khalsir

Little Pear Tree Ram

Little Pear Tree Ram is Kalwinder Singh Dhindsa’s rambling love letter of sorts and thoughts to the city of Derby and it’s wonderful folk.

A collected children’s edition of poetry and prose, which follows the life of a Derby boy. Touching upon identity, community, culture and many other things that define and strengthen the man that he has become.

The 30 poems in this collection are collected together from Pear Tree Rambler, Pear Tree Rampage, Pear Tree Rampart, Pear Tree Ram and 3 extra poems.

Suitable for all children.


KINDLE £0.99

Paperback £2.99

By khalsir

Pear Tree Ram – The Collected Edition

Pear Tree Ram is Kalwinder Singh Dhindsa’s rambling love letter of sorts and thoughts to the city of Derby and it’s wonderful folk.

A collected edition of poetry and prose, which follows the life of a Derby boy. Touching upon identity, community, culture and many other things that define and strengthen the man that he has become.

The 90 poems in this edition are collected together from Pear Tree Rambler, Pear Tree Rampage, Pear Tree Rampart and 16 extra poems.

WARNING: May contain words that some people find offensive.


By khalsir

Pear Tree Rampart – April 1st

Pear Tree Rampart is Kalwinder Singh Dhindsa’s rambling love letter of sorts and thoughts to the city of Derby and it’s wonderful folk.

A third collection of poetry and prose, which follows the life of a Derby boy. Touching upon identity, community, culture and many other things that define and strengthen the man that he has become.

WARNING: May contain words that some people find offensive.


£0.99 Kindle

£2.99 Paperback


By khalsir

Smith of Derby

Harrison Clock Visit

FEBRUARY 12, 2019

This morning, volunteers from the Derby Museum of Making arrived for a tour of the clock works. After a short introduction from Managing Director Bob Betts, which touched on the history of the family company and its commitment to the future of clockmaking, Bob handed over to Customer Service Manager, Tony Charlesworth, who led the nine visitors on a tour of the factory.

Of particular note was the Harrison Clock. Tony outlined how Smith of Derby apprentices had been responsible for the dismantling, restoring and reassembly of the clock, and how the clock was back to full working order and ready for reinstallation in the Museum of Making at some point before its reopening in 2020.

Among the visitors was Kalwinder Singh Dhindsa, author and teacher and long-term resident of Derby. “I’ve grown up in Derby”, he said, “and now work here and it’s exciting to see Smith of Derby, a company synonymous with Derby itself, continuing the work they have done for generations. Clocks give you a (sense of) time and a place, clocks themselves and the memory of them can take you back in time. It’s sad when you see a clock somewhere and it’s stopped, as soon as a clock dies it’s not the same. Time is a beautiful thing and horology and it’s great to see your work here at Smith of Derby and how you are evolving and restoring clocks and keeping them alive.”

 Joining Tony on the tour was also Nick Whitworth, 6th Generation of Smith Family, who enjoyed being reminded of what unusual and interesting company Smiths is when seen through new eyes. Nick remarked how “it’s great to be amongst those who are perhaps encountering the work we do for the first time. They asked lots of questions and were inquisitive and wanted to know how clocks worked and why they were the way they were. Of course, those of us connected with the company are proud of the work we do, the traditional and the cutting-edge, but it’s nice to share this feeling with others and to see that our work is prompting an enthusiastic response.”



By khalsir

Pear Tree Rampage

Pear Tree Rampage is Kalwinder Singh Dhindsa’s rambling love letter of sorts and thoughts to the city of Derby and it’s wonderful folk.

A second collection of poetry and prose, which follows the life of a Derby boy. Touching upon identity, community, culture and many other things that define and strengthen the man that he has become.

WARNING: May contain words that some people find offensive.

By khalsir


Tributes paid to much-loved Derby PE teacher who was as an ‘absolute legend’

Steve Jones has passed away

By Nick Reid

08:56, 1 JAN 2019

A “jolly blue giant”, a “gentleman” and a “legend” is how former pupils have described a Derby PE teacher who died just before Christmas.

Hundreds of pupils and teachers from the former Homelands Grammar School, which later became Village Community School, have paid tribute to Steve Jones who taught there for 30 years.

Many have come forward to share their memories of the 68-year-old grandfather and how his influence has helped shape their lives.

Former pupil Kalwinder Singh Dhindsa, 39, said: “I will always remember him as a jolly blue giant, with a great big moustache as he would always wear the same blue jacket and tracksuit bottoms.

Steve’s son Andy Jones said: “He was a real character, a great role model, much loved by everybody and he made a difference to so many people’s lives.”

Another former pupil Yas Ellahi wrote: “Most of us will not remember many teachers names, but you mention Mr Jones and people will say Homelands school, he was the pillar of Homelands.”

A great guy who everybody loved

Mr Jones, of Mickleover, started teaching at the school in 1972 and was one of a handful of teachers who was still there when closed down back in 2002.

He went on to teach at West Park School, in Spondon, before retiring at the age of 57, around ten years ago.

Andy Jones, 35, paid tribute to his father and was delighted to see so many comments from his former pupils.

He said: “My dad was just a great guy who everybody loved.

Hundreds of people have paid tribute to Steve Jones (Image: Kalwinder Singh Dhindsa). 

“It is still very raw at the moment, but it has been so comforting to read the comments that have been flooding in across Facebook.

“It fills in the blanks as you don’t often see the impact he had on so many people’s lives.

“He will be missed by everyone in our family, it is such a sad time.”

A lovely, kind man

Mr Dhindsa was at the school from 1991 to 1996 and was inspired to become a teacher because of the influence Mr Jones had on him.

He said: “He was just a lovely, kind man who had such a great influence on me and so many students.

“You never wanted to be in trouble with Mr Jones. He always had that presence that if you misbehaved he would be tough. You never saw that side to him though.

“He was at the school for thirty years and was there right until the end in 2002.

“When you are a kid you have your sports heroes, like David Beckham, but as you get older you realise that the real heroes were back in the playground and in the classrooms.

‘Teachers’ by Kalwinder Singh Dhindsa

Superheroes disguised unveiled in hindsight.

Superpowers bequeathed through the moonlight.

Remember those dreams that left you spellbound.

Life’s greatest heroes prowl the school playground.

Mr Dhindsa said: “Did I have Mr Jones in particular in mind when I wrote it two weeks ago? Most probably. As well as all the other great heroes and heroines of mine from school.”

“We had some great teachers at the school when I was there and Mr Jones is one of those that you always remember.

“The school had its problems over the years, but we were one big family and it was people like Mr Jones who made it such a special place to be.”

He was always willing to help

Sam Robinson also contacted Derbyshire Live to share her memories of Mr Jones.

She said: “He was a teacher second and a friend first as he would do anything he could to help.

“I had a real phobia of school because of bullies and he used to take me there every morning.

“He was more like an uncle than a teacher and you could go to him with queries or problems and he was always willing to help.

Mr Jones taught at the former Homelands Grammar School
Mr Jones taught at the former Homelands Grammar School (Image: Derby Telegraph)

“There are a lot of people who have been left shocked by this and my thoughts are with his family.”

Many former pupils of Mr Jones and colleagues have take to social media to express their sorrow of his loss.

Several have posted in a special Facebook group set up for those who went to the school over the years.

Adam Leather wrote: “He always had time for you no matter what was going on. I think he was the only teacher to truly understand us guys at Village. It was an honour to know this great man. He will be sadly missed.”

Lisa Mason wrote: “Pupils were his number one.

“He gained as much respect as he did then and now as he knew how to treat his pupils.

“To gain respect you need to show respect. He certainly did that. One of the life lessons I took away from him. He wasn’t one for numbers, we were children growing and achieving, not a roll number.”

Absolute hero of a teacher

Tasha Beswick said: “He was the best teacher I have ever known. He was always there for his pupils. He would treat you with respect and would always listen.

“He will be very much missed. I never respected a teacher like I respect him.”

Zafar Iqbal wrote: “He was my PE teacher and an absolute legend. He was a great teacher, may he rest in peace.

Tris A Hb, who attended homelands between 1981 to 1986, wrote: “Absolute hero of a teacher. Not just a teacher, but one hell of a gentleman who impacted on all who attended Homelands School.

Kelly Sahota wrote: “He had a great sense of humour. When I think of Homelands, I think of Mr Jones. RIP Jonesy.”

Manjit Bains said: “He was funny, down to earth and approachable. A teacher I will always remember.”


By khalsir

Coming Soon

For my next release I will be releasing another collection of 25 poems called

‘Pear Tree Rampage’

PTRampage 1-1

To Be Released


By khalsir

Students given timely assembly on ‘The Stigma of Suicide’

I visited Ealing Independent College today. A great honour. Thank You to the staff and students 🙂


Ealing College

Celebrated British Punjabi author Kalwinder Singh Dhindsa, pictured above with Senior Teacher Dr Elizabeth Coombes, gave a personal talk to our students today, confronting the ever-growing issues of mental health within society. He emphasised the importance of discussing one’s problems in order to move beyond them and lead a positive life. Khalsir has written extensively on the subject of depression and has completed a very well received memoire documenting the challenges he faced following the suicide of his father. The talk was poignant, thought provoking and uplifting.

By khalsir

Coming Soon

For my next release I will be releasing a collection of 25 poems called

‘Pear Tree Rambler’


Pear Tree Rambler is Kalwinder Singh Dhindsa’s rambling love letter of sorts and thoughts to the city of Derby and it’s wonderful folk.

A collection of poetry and prose which follows the life of a Derby boy. Touching upon identity, community, culture and many other things that define and strengthen the man that he has become.

WARNING: May contain words that some people find offensive.


By khalsir

Derby Football Programme and Memorabilia Fair, Sunday 21st October 2018

I shall be in attendance signing copies of my books ‘My Father & The Lost Legend of Pear Tree’ Part One & Two.

“Kalwinder’s book “My Father & the Lost Legend of Pear Tree (Part One – The Trough)”, published in 2016, traces the story of his father’s life and suicide, and how that impacted upon the author during his life in the Pear Tree area of Derby.

His sequel “Part Two – The Crest” was published in May 2018 and recounts how he has achieved salvation from his grief through his active dedication to DCFC’s heritage. He tells how he turned his dream of establishing permanent memorial statues at Pride Park Stadium to Rams legends – Steve Bloomer, Brian Clough & Peter Taylor – into reality.

Kal’s writings are an important contribution to how supporters continue to promote Derby County’s great legacy and also to improving the awareness of mental health issues. He is our guest at the Derby Football Memorabilia Fair; he will be offering signed copies of his books at special prices and talking about his Rams heritage work”.




By khalsir

Peter Seddon’s Watching

I attended the Ramtique event at Pride Park today and was finally able to meet one of my literary heroes.

The man who wrote the book on Steve Bloomer that consequently inspired my own story.

My Father & The Lost Legend of Pear Tree.

I’ve actually known Peter Seddon for the last 10 years now having conversed with him on many occasion via email.

Today I met him for real and Steve Bloomer was watching on….as always





By khalsir

#TeamTalk – Derby County Community Trust

I went to my first Derby County Community Trust #TeamTalk get together yesterday.

Spending 2 hours chatting away with fellow fans whilst playing FIFA, Cards and Table Tennis together. There was even a Forest fan amongst us 👍🏾

I will be attending many more in the future.

It’s good to talk




By khalsir

Whooverville X

I appeared at Whooverville X yesterday and met some great people.


Here I am with Paul Cornell. Paul and his Doctor Who story ‘Father’s Day’ appear in Part One of my own story. It was nice to chat to him and share my love of that particular episode and how much he meant to me as it was the last episode I ever watched with my father.


Here I am with a fellow Doctor Who fan by the name of Helena. She had already read Part One and was very much looking forward to reading Part Two. It was great to chat to her.


And here I am with the actor David Gooderson who played Davros in Destiny of the Daleks. Incredibly, I found out that he was born in Lahore. So in effect he is a Punjabi like myself. I had a good chat with him. A very nice man. He also once appeared in Lovejoy too.

By khalsir

My Father & The Lost Legend of Pear Tree by Kalwinder Singh Dhindsa (Synopsis)

Still Watching


Steve Bloomer was an England international footballer who became Derby County Football Club’s all time record goal scorer. Although not born in Derby, he was raised in a inner city suburb called Pear Tree where he would develop his footballing abilities and go on to become one of the greatest players the game has ever produced.

My Father & The Lost Legend of Pear Tree is essentially a story about my father’s suicide. In a series of moments in my life I reconnect with Steve Bloomer, a ghostly pale face from the past, who then takes me on a journey of regeneration and discovery. Thus allowing me to eventually come to terms with my father’s death and in the process kick off my quest for happiness. Told in a non-linear time format I take the reader through a journey in time. Recounting how my father, myself and Steve Bloomer all grew up in Pear Tree, Derby and what then became of all our lives.



MF&TLLoPT is essentially a story about my father’s suicide and how a reconnection with a ghostly pale face from the past takes me on a journey of regeneration and discovery. Thus allowing me to eventually come to terms with my father’s death and in the process kick off my quest for happiness.

The story is told in two parts over the two years I worked as a teacher of Science at John Port School in Etwall, Derbyshire. Beginning with the death of my father in March 2006 to the birth of my daughter Layla in October 2008, and then ultimately the unveiling of the Steve Bloomer bust at Pride Park in 2009. During the progression of my story a series of flashbacks take me back to happier times as well as the more recent darker days leading up to and after my father’s death. Told in a non-linear time format I take the reader through a journey of how my father and I both grew up in Pear Tree, Derby. Halfway into Part One I reveal a memory about a legendary Derby County & England Football player who I had unexpectedly stumbled across in my childhood and who would never leave my thoughts.

It is Steve Bloomer who I reconnect with in Part Two after I leave my teaching job and look for a happier life. With time on my hands and a need to keep busy and distracted I decide to fervently buy up and read as many books about Derby as I can. Anything to somehow make connections back to my father, and look back into times in which I believe he would have been happier. I finally decide to read Peter J. Seddon’s Biography of Steve Bloomer, which had been consigned to my bookshelf, unread, for a year. As I begin reading the biography I realise that Steve Bloomer was a Pear Tree boy just like my father and myself. I become captivated and begin retracing Steve Bloomer’s steps up and down the streets of Pear Tree, where Bloomer, My father and myself had all been raised. It awakens my spirits. I’m reminded of the day I first came across Steve Bloomer and how sad I felt that he might have been forgotten in time. I also read the account of Steve Richards, Steve Bloomer’s grandson about how he was at his grandfather’s side on the day he passed away. Again it saddens me and I realise that I must reclaim Steve Bloomer’s legend for the people of Derby, as no good person should ever be forgotten in death. It is my way of remembering a good father: it is my way of remembering my own father. I contact the local newspaper, the Derby Evening Telegraph, and tell them that I have discovered the pub where Steve Bloomer passed away in 1938. I visit the Great Northern and have photos taken with the landlady who was also unaware of the connection. The story is then printed in the newspaper filling me with a great sense of pride and satisfaction. BBC Radio Derby then does a follow up interview with me at the pub. At this point Steve Richards writes to the landlady and thanks her and myself for remembering his grandfather. News has also travelled to family members still living in South Africa. Steve Richards also reveals that he would like to meet me. Hoping to somehow share my father’s story as well as that of the Legend of Steve Bloomer, I have an epiphany that feels like a regeneration (Doctor Who/Quantum Leap). I realise I can tell both their stories and also the story of Pear Tree, Derby and all it’s lost heroes and heroines.

A few weeks later Derby County reveal that they will erect a bust of Steve Bloomer in Pride Park. In the Derby Evening Telegraph the sculptor Andy Edwards asks Rams fans to come down and see him at work. I rush down to Pride Park and Andy and I immediately hit it off and become good friends. Helping Andy out with the research for the bust I also share with him my loss and my ideas for my own statue projects. He immediately realises how much Derby means to me and the pride I feel for my old neighbourhood and the city. One particular statue project I have in mind and discuss with Andy is of a Brian Clough AND Peter Taylor statue in Derby.

Our daughter Layla Anise Mohin Kaur Dhindsa is born a week or so after initially meeting Andy.

I attend the unveiling of the Brian Clough statue in Nottingham and feel gutted that Nottingham born, Peter Thomas Taylor was not also by Brian Clough’s side. Clough and Taylor were a partnership and they were a success together. It upsets me, just like I felt when I first came across Steve Bloomer’s plaque at the old Baseball Ground. Another father forgotten in time? Another man forgotten by his people? After initially having reservations about a Brian Clough and Peter Taylor statue I immediately change my mind. I ask Ashley Wilkinson, a Littleover schoolboy, who originally created the ‘Brian Clough Statue’ Petition to add Peter Taylor’s name too. He agrees that we should change it to Clough AND Taylor.

Steve Bloomer’s Bust is unveiled in Jan 2009. Andy allows me to put a little Pear logo under Steve Bloomer’s elbow. A reminder to everyone that he was raised in Pear Tree, Derby. I finally manage to meet Steve Bloomer’s grateful family and his two Grandsons, Steve Richards and Alan Quantrill, who both thank me for my contribution and efforts in keeping their grandfather’s memory alive.

The story finishes with the unveiling of the Steve Bloomer bust. However, in the epilogue I also reveal the unveiling of the Clough and Taylor statue too and all the other projects I have involved myself with off the back of Steve Bloomer. Including a Sikh Poppy Khanda I designed for the Royal British Legion to honour all the Sikhs who fought and sacrificed their lives to help the British Empire in their time of need during two World Wars. The Khanda is also my way of honouring Gian Singh VC who was a soldier from my Mother’s village in the Punjab. Like Steve Bloomer, Gian Singh also guided me through my dark days.

Our second child Raman Rohan Singh Dhindsa is born in November 2011.

I still have periods of darkness ranging from extreme lows to extreme highs. Until one day my dark days are finally put behind me after I read a newspaper article about the death of Robin Williams. I finally come to the realisation and understanding that my father took his life because he had a mental illness. It took nine years to fully accept this and in the end I am eternally grateful to Steve Bloomer and all my heroes[*] who kept me so distracted and busy so that I was unable to follow the same dark path that my father travelled. Even at my lowest points they were always there to remind me to keep ticking, to keep going, to keep fighting and most of all to never, never, never give up.

I owe them my life.


My Father & The Lost Legend of Pear Tree

Part One

The Trough

Chapter 01 : D-Day

Chapter 02 : High Rising Spirits

Chapter 03 : The Gathering Storm

Chapter 04 : Catch – 51

Chapter 05 : Derby – England

Chapter 06 : Nawanshahr – Punjab

Chapter 07 : Steve Who? I & II

Chapter 08 : Into The Storm

Chapter 09 : The Silence

Chapter 10 : DeAD

Chapter 11 : Bury Your Head

Chapter 12 : Back To School

My Father & The Lost Legend of Pear Tree

Part Two

The Crest

Chapter 13 : Seconds

Chapter 14 : Operation DynaMO

Chapter 15 : Fields of Dreams

Chapter 16 : Destroying Angel

Chapter 17 : Good Old Derby

Chapter 18 : The Great Northern

Chapter 19 : Steve Bloomer’s Watching

Chapter 20 : Pear Tree Ram

Chapter 21 : Crossed Wires

Chapter 22 : For The Bairns

Chapter 23 : Stoked

Chapter 24 : Lost & Found

Chapter 25 : Epilogue

[*] Some of them who have a connection to Pear Tree, Derby.

Steve Bloomer – Gian Singh VC – Clough & Taylor – Dave Mackay – King of Rome/Charles Hudson/Dave Sudbury – Alice Wheeldon.

By khalsir

Book Review: From the Punjab to Pear Tree

Thank You to the Suicide Bereaved Network for this review of Part One of my book, My Father & The Lost Legend of Pear Tree.

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My Father & the Lost Legend of Pear Tree, Part 1 by Kalwinder Singh Dhindsa. 2016 (CreateSpace Independent Publishing Platform, £8.99). Available from Amazon and listed in the Suicide Bereaved Network Library.

It is rare to find a book that deals in any depth with the subject of suicide in a minority ethnic or religious community, and Kalwinder Singh Dhindsa’s self-published book is to be welcomed for filling this gap and for providing such a rich and informative account of life in the Sikh community in his hometown, Derby. The loss of his beloved father, Mohinder, to suicide when he himself was in his mid-twenties is the central theme of the book, and this event provides the starting point for the narrative. Although Mohinder was a man of few words, his relationship with his son is described in a very authentic way, leaving us in no doubt about this man’s devotion to his son and to his wider family. This makes his decline into depression all the more heart-breaking and heightens the sense of loss felt by his family and community following his suicide.

The book provides a vivid description of the young Sikh boy growing up, from a perspective that spans two continents. Kalwinder’s pride, both in his Punjabi ancestry and in his East Midlands hometown is vividly evoked. The cultural complexities of Sikhism are explained, particularly the hierarchy of sibling roles within the family and – amusingly – the difficulty Kal experienced in trying to maintain his top-knot as a young boy.

This book also provides a remarkable insight into the male psyche, describing the author’s pride in his beloved Derby County Football Club, his strong work ethic and drive to achieve, and how he draws on these elements when navigating his grief at the loss of his father.

My Father and the Lost Legend of Pear Tree is not necessarily an easy read, as the narrative tends to jump around and there is so much background detail to absorb. There are also some sections that don’t add much to the reader’s understanding and which would have benefitted from editing. Another observation is that the pages of this book are unnumbered, making it difficult to refer to specific locations in the book.

However, this is a hugely valuable and informative book on the themes of suicide and suicide bereavement, on the Sikh community and culture in Britain, and on masculinity and father-son relationships.


By khalsir

Auf Wiedersehen, Pet.

I was on  BBC Radio Newcastle earlier talking about one of my all time favourite shows.

Auf Wiedersehen, Pet.


I’m hoping to kick off a campaign to build a monument to the Magnificent 7.

You can hear what I had to say to Lisa Shaw from about 1hr 40m onwards.

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By khalsir

Potential Match : Stem Cell Transplant

I received the following email message yesterday from the Anthony Nolan Stem Cell Register


Dear Kalwinder Singh,
Donor: ******* 

We are pleased to inform you that you appear to be a potential match for a patient requiring a stem cell transplant, and would be most grateful if you could provide blood samples to verify this match. As a registered Anthony Nolan donor you are eligible to continue to be tested and to donate until your 60th birthday.

I had initially signed up to the register about 7 years ago during the Rik Basra Leukaemia Campaign. A couple of years later I also helped promote the Gaurav Bains Campaign. And since then I’ve tried my best to promote many more campaigns especially within my own BAME community.

Last year saw the highest ever number of black, Asian and minority ethnic (BAME) people register as stem cell donors, according to a new report which shines a light on the inequalities which remain for BAME patients in need of donors. The annual review from Anthony Nolan and NHS Blood and Transplant, From Strength to Strength, reveals that BAME people made up 23% (42,326) of new registered adults on the UK donor register, which rose by 185,000 in 2016 to almost 1.3 million.

It’s great to see the register numbers increasing especially in the BAME community. Since I joined the register I have seen firsthand on many occasions how family and friends mobilise and come together to try and save the life of a loved one. After all that effort to try and get as many people as possible to join the stem cell donor register. How unbelievably rewarding it must be to find a match against what feels like unsurmountable odds at the time.
I hope that now that I have been identified as a potential match I can also do my little bit to help save a life. Fingers crossed that all goes well and ‘potential match’ become ‘confirmed match’.

Never Give Up


‘Donate Stem Cells’

Anthony Nolan


‘Donate Stem Cells’

Delete Blood Cancer


By khalsir